I wasn't always like this, you know. Once upon a time I actually got enjoyment from the prowling, teasing, and eventually fulfilling my sexual needs. I haven't felt the enjoyment from it in ages. In fact, the exact opposite has happened. The last two lovers I've had turned me off. Ok, so they weren't lovers in the idea that we fucked, made love, sexed, whatever the fuck you want to call it. They were lovers in the idea that we went out on several dates and then had our moments of making out then only to end up in my bed with their faces between my legs and suddenly, it just was not working for me.
I can't figure it out. Now, on two separate occasions, I could not enjoy being pleasured the way I used to be. When did this all change?
It hardly adds up to me. I'm turned on by kissing people, but then when it comes down to other things, I have not yet been turned on lately. Have I gotten pickier about my lovers? Was I just not turned on by these two fairly attractive men? I don't get it.
Is it stress? Boredum? My lack of interest in the male gender lately? My increased interest in females? Where has the pleasure gone?
